Apologies

Just wanted to say I'm sorry for breaking into ur account. For what it's worth. 

I don't like the person I have become.

I have never done this before.

And yet with you, I feel so uncertain, so anxious, so unsure.

Of Everything.

I'm not sure it's your fault.

Or only your fault.

It just is.

Not right, nor wrong.

But it's strong.

You always act like you have something to hide.

Now I feel like shit because I did that.

After a few bad google translations,

And a spicy message to Rainbow Flint

 I found nothing I was looking for.

I guess you were innocent after all.

But not in the way you act.

I know you will say your integrity is down the line,

That I have broken your privacy, your boundaries.

And it's true, I have.

I almost want to be done with this relationship,

So that I can avoid the person I've become.

I know you won't forgive me,

Or if you will,

You will never tell me

Or it will never show...

(Believe it or not, this is a desperate call for FEELINGS)

Tell me,

Show me!

Or I just won't be able to forgive myself.