Feeling like a fiery Whirlpool

The hurt is opening its big mouth
to swallow us
And we go in willingly,
Without a fight.
Although we fight each other.
And the abyss we build in the process
Is getting deeper and wider
For I don't know when to stop.
And you don't know where to begin.

We are stuck in this crucible
And fire gets used to light up
more and more shadows
forgotten deep down in our
Embodied Soul.

We are a whirlpool of feelings.
And we are spinning around
with them
Until we get dizzy and our
head gets fuzzy,
Our stomach churns,
throat constricted with lies.
Lies we tell each other,
They come out unwillingly and yet they are
deliberate, with a life of their own,
Separate from our real sentiments
Clouded by dark textures
And covered in gold.
And I am feeling more and more
like a Fiery whirlpool,
Consumed in the tragic actuality of love.

Apologies

Just wanted to say I'm sorry for breaking into ur account. For what it's worth. 

I don't like the person I have become.

I have never done this before.

And yet with you, I feel so uncertain, so anxious, so unsure.

Of Everything.

I'm not sure it's your fault.

Or only your fault.

It just is.

Not right, nor wrong.

But it's strong.

You always act like you have something to hide.

Now I feel like shit because I did that.

After a few bad google translations,

And a spicy message to Rainbow Flint

 I found nothing I was looking for.

I guess you were innocent after all.

But not in the way you act.

I know you will say your integrity is down the line,

That I have broken your privacy, your boundaries.

And it's true, I have.

I almost want to be done with this relationship,

So that I can avoid the person I've become.

I know you won't forgive me,

Or if you will,

You will never tell me

Or it will never show...

(Believe it or not, this is a desperate call for FEELINGS)

Tell me,

Show me!

Or I just won't be able to forgive myself.