In the places I’ve been trying to avoid it the most…

I’ve been trying to run away from my life

But it’s found me where I’ve been trying to avoid it the most;

In places of the heart longing to be forgotten,

Where the will does not go, for it has no will at all.

I’ve been trying to fast from difficult emotions

And see radiance in other people’s faces;

I have hidden my own in the veil of Sorrow

belonging to the world itself.

I’ve been trying to hide deep within my heart,

Which closed fully at my entering it.

I could feel it could not really contain me,

For only my body of fear alone was enormous.

And then I had a body of desire, one of rage, one of anxiety and one of lust;

All waiting to be contained.

As a result, my heart went on strike

And stopped beating.

Seconds later, my long, deep breath brought it back to life.

And that is how life found me in the places I’ve been trying to avoid it the most.